Dear April, I suppose you will expect me to say “I DO LOVE April”

You should know upfront when I write one story, it may be bad. Just read it to know :)

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Dear April, When you came out, I already knew how unforgettable you were \(´▽`)/

April, this year you gave me so many things to remember for the rest of my life. Honestly, I don’t want it to be real only ‘this April’, but also for upcoming April years to come. April seems like summer for me, it gives me warm and unspeakable feeling. My heart is full of expectation with joy in it. Probably, April is similar with New Year eve for me, where I do re-evaluate myself with my own created standard, and it helps me to fell completely new. That’s why April radiates me positivity and optimism I need the most to be better. 

April is also the turning point for me to grow up because I was born in April. It means the tipping point I measure how mature I am is thru April. That’s why April so damn special for me.  

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I felt like I already asked so many things in my pray but not as much as I was grateful to God in the same time, and I feel bad for that. I already got 23 this year and it made me really believe that gratitude is the sustenance that maintains the infinite blessing we got. It mostly about time and how I can never buy it back.

 

For the sake of God, I already got what I wish from the last birthday. I was a jobless last year and now I get one. I hope I could get a better career here and this April I got a job promotion. I hope I could financially help my Mom and now even not much I already do that. I hope I could get home to visit my Mom by my own money, and this April I got the ticket on my hand right now. These are some big things I Do really grateful for. Maybe for some of you these aren’t the big things happen in your life, but this is really huge for me.

The part of my life I once filled with down feeling, sadness, and disappointment has been nothing just now. Time taught me how to cover it well. Like what I often listen from people around, when you get older, you have a higher standard for everything, and now, I believe that. No matter whether people counted me either good or bad one, I am who I choose to be, and I choose to move on and do things that my future will thank me for. Then, I would preserve my memories for stand still in the future.  These are the sort of things I have to learn by living my life.

You know what April; You totally surprised me a lot

 

Our Last Date in April

I never imagined in my 23^rd birthday, I would get these much blessing.

The day before the H day, my Mom and Dad came to Batam just to celebrate my birthday. For every hardship they got before touch down in Batam (by bus, taxi and ferry in the same day from Malaysia to Batam), I’ve no words to say how endless their love for me. I never expect I would bring my parent by Angkot as long as in Batam but with all smile in their face, they were donating all their energy just to let me felt completely happy in my day. 

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I really got so much another birthday surprised this April, I got it from my best friend at office (thanks Ade and Dewi *thousand kiss*), I got so much presents, I got so much photos with “congrats words “in it and I had opportunity to visit Bandung to found another surprised party from my long life best friend Gesti and Bibi and plus Gime’s family (my Supervisor Bang rey, bang Ozy and Wingky)- Thank You Guys, *hug tight*. 

 

Last Day - Bandung

I am not a good writer yet to write down my memories into lovely words, I really want to be but am sure I need thousand practices for that. Here, I would like to say Thank you April, you made up all things real for me, Thanks God for made my last year wish came true and made me so much better than I used to be.  I hope I can be way better than before, and next year I want to write my 24^th wish :D

For the God sake, how can I hate this April!

"When this world keep rotating, 

I already bye bye to 22 and turned into 23. After all, I just find it beautiful. 

I felt warm, happy, sad, and awful, up, down, sweet, mess and other feelings I couldn't spell it out. Like so many reasons to be sad, I already found bunch of reasons to be grateful and happy. Thanks for bring me here God, Thanks for lemme have a wonderful parents, a warm relatives, super nice sisters, lot of best friends & partners around, as well as long life lessons to keep me growing up and strong. I do thanks for every single prays and every single kindness you all gave to me, for every presents and for every time you count me in.

May Allah always grant all of us long life happiness."